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Something Else

Tue, 17 Apr 2012, 07:58 PM (-06:00) Creative Commons License

“You’re killing me man” he said as I stood in the doorway of his office.

I had submitted my resignation the week before, but it was spring break, and he was out of town.

I had dreaded this conversation. This was the profession I always wanted. These were people I had known and respected for many years. But the future of NASA’s manned space program looks grim, and in my telecommuting position it felt like having my head in the sand not to be planning for something more solid, something more certain, something else.

Then in February, things fell into place and something else came along. They talked to me. I talked to them. They liked me. I liked them. They made an offer. I accepted. And then I submitted my letter of resignation.

I should have given them more time, but events conspired against me. So it looked a bit like I was just up and leaving.

“You’re killing me.”

He looked up with a grim smile on his face. He was busy. I was there for a meeting. He stood up. We shook hands and spoke only briefly.

By the end of the day, the word would be generally out, and there would be two weeks to go.

That was about a month ago.

Conjunction

Sun, 11 Mar 2012, 09:34 PM (-06:00) Creative Commons License

1. Tonite

“Trudy, you have to come see this,” I said, coming in from the backyard.

“Is it about the compost?” she asked.

“No,” I said and walked back outside.

“Wow,” she said, looking at the clear sky. “The stars are bright.”

2. Last Fall

Back in the fall, just as it was starting to get cool at night, Trudy and I sat on the bench in the front yard looking east with Venus setting behind us. Jupiter was rising.

We gazed at Jupiter and looked at the Galilean satellites with binoculars. I kept turning my head to the west to look at Venus, too. What an amazing light show, one in the west going down, one in the east coming up.

That was months ago. In the meantime, Jupiter has been catching up to Venus.

3. Last Week

I had just worked out at the gym. The sun had gone down a while before. Now it was mostly night.

Venus was shining bright above fading dim red memory of sunset. Jupiter was higher in the sky. The Moon was next. And now I turned to the east to see reddish Mars rising.

And I turned back to the west to find Mercury.

The reddish/pink of day’s end was still too bright, and there was nothing to see from the horizon up to Venus. So I stood out there and searched, not knowing quite where to look.

I walked around the parking lot, thinking that the glow of the streetlights might have been the problem. But there was nothing to see, no stars and certainly no Mercury.

I started walking to my car but stopped short. I turned back and headed out into a field beyond the parking lot. A man walking into the gym eyed me nervously. I smiled as we passed and kept walking.

And then I looked up and it was there: Mercury clearly visible just above the last hints of sunset.

Mercury and then Venus shining brightly and then Jupiter and then the Moon and then Mars. The plane of the ecliptic etched across the heavens above me.

4. Tonite Once More

We are standing in the backyard in the dark. Orion is directly overhead.

“Wow. The stars are bright,” Trudy says.

“Look over there,” I say.

I point to the west. And there they are, shining brightly side by side over the roof of the house: Venus to the right, Jupiter to the left and just a little bit behind.

I confess, I tend to be a cynic about celestial events, finding that the hype often eclipses the event. But this conjunction is something else. It really is quite amazing what is going on these days just after sunset.

Go out and see it if you can.

She Slowed to Look

Sun, 11 Mar 2012, 09:56 AM (-06:00) Creative Commons License

1.

Confusion came with warm weather and rain.

Lantana and Lilies. Cowpen and  Four Nerve and Blackfoot Daisies. Salvia and Spiderwort and Prairie Verbena. Ten-petal Anemone and Agarita and EchinacaeTexas Redbud. They all blossomed early, and the yard has exploded in purples and yellows and whites.

2.

There is a school girl who walks by our house on her way home. She’s not like most kids her age. She walks intentionally, her head deep in thought, a cello case competing with the backpack on her back.

I saw her recently walking by on our side of the street. She looked over at our flowers in the sun. She stopped and turned to gaze at them, looking down the street and then back at the flowers.

She stood there full stop, and I was proud.

3.

Then this girl looked down the street again and took a step back.

A van drove up and stopped. The door slid open. She set her cello one the floor and climbed in. The door closed, and the van drove off.

And then of course I knew why she had actually stopped. It wasn’t our purples and yellows and whites. And I knew my pride was misplaced. But of course, that doesn’t really matter. Because the color was there, and you know she saw it, and that is what matters.

4.

It rained again last night, a luscious, soaking rain. And the sun is out this morning.

And the Bluebonnets are coming soon.

Ages Were Long

Sun, 4 Mar 2012, 07:33 PM (-06:00) Creative Commons License

“Do you remember when your father died?”

“Yes,” my father said, looking up with wide eyes. “That was two days before my master’s results came in. He never got to see them.”

“That was May 1950,” he added. “My father was very old. In his 80s at least, perhaps more.”

He was quiet for a moment.

“My mother lived a long time after that,” he said. “She died after I came back from Saudi Arabia. That was in 1986.”

He was quiet again.

“Her father was very old. When I was in high school, he was still alive.”

Now my father’s eyes got wide again, and he held his hand in the air.

“Her father was very old … perhaps 100!”

And now he was quiet again.

“Yes … ages were long on both sides of my family.”

Waiting for the Train to Bareilly

Sat, 3 Mar 2012, 11:06 PM (-06:00) Creative Commons License

“Hah!” my father chuckled.

His eyes sparkled and he was smiling.

“All these details come back…”

“When my family took me to the train station, they took me in a bullock cart.”

He looked at me with wide eyes when he said the words, bullock cart.

“And I was very tired when the left me. And it was several hours before the train.”

He paused for a moment, looking inward. Remembering.

“There was no place to sit. So I lay down on the ground. There were stones here and there…”

And his voice faded off.

Abdul Khaliq

Sat, 3 Mar 2012, 10:56 PM (-06:00) Creative Commons License

We wanted Abdul Khaliq to go to school . We wanted him to go the the same school I had gone to. To the government high school that was taught in English. But the headmaster said no. He said there was no room.

We decided to take our case to the Secretary of Education, because you see the headmaster was Hindu. So I got a train ticket to Bareilly. A first class ticket to try to set things right.

When I got to the train, there were two British soldiers in the first class car. They saw me and told me to get out. I showed them my ticket, but it didn’t matter to them. I tried to insist, and one of the soldiers hit me. So I left the car.

The trainmaster at the station said that there was nothing he could do. He gave me a second class ticket. And I got on one of the second class cars.

You see all these things were going on in the country then. Such hatred. Such prejudice. But now, the Secretary of Education was a Christian.

I explained our request, and he approved. He signed a paper and gave it to me.

So I returned from Bareilly. And I showed the headmaster the paper admitting Abdul Khaliq. There was nothing he could do. He had to admit him.

My father looked up at me. His story was done.

Khadija spoke from dining room. “Is this the same Abdul Khaliq? The same one who calls us all the time?”

“The same one,” my father said.

xkcd (How Does He Do It?)

Fri, 2 Mar 2012, 10:36 PM (-06:00) Creative Commons License

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hat tip: http://xkcd.com/1024/

Dogs and Pines and Moon

Fri, 2 Mar 2012, 10:03 PM (-06:00) Creative Commons License

The dogs walked around the yard a bit, sniffed the balmy air and went back inside.

It was dark. I couldn’t see my feet in the shadows. I stood there in the warm night letting my eyes adjust.

A breeze came up. It blew thru the branches of the pine tree and made that lonesome sound that wind makes when it blows thru the branches of pine trees.

The sound made me look up.

You see, I like that pine tree song. It stirs memories of years long gone. So I looked up from where I stood under that pine tree and watched the branches sway. I listened to the music, and my mind swam in reverie.

Then the moon passed out from behind the tattered clouds. It chased the darkness away and showed me the path back into the house where the dogs were patiently waiting.

What Forman Did For Him

Sun, 26 Feb 2012, 10:15 PM (-06:00) Creative Commons License

1. Crossing the Border

So my father decided to leave Aligarh Muslim University to study at Forman Christian College. Forman sent a him a permit that would get him across the border.

“Without that, I couldn’t go,” he said. “Indian muslims were no longer allowed to cross into Pakistan.”

2. What Forman Paid

He was there for a year lecturing in physics. They paid him 300 rupies per month.

He looks up at me with wide eyes. “300 rupies, can you imagine? That was a large amount.”

3. Getting His Feet on the Ground

And when he came to the United States after that year, Forman helped him get his feet on the ground.

“They gave me 2-3 months pay,” he said.

Not cash, mind you. He would have had to carry cash across the border. And he would have had to convert rupies into dollars. No, Forman arranged for the money to be paid to him by missionaries in the US who were associated with the college.

The Agha Khan

Sun, 26 Feb 2012, 09:53 PM (-06:00) Creative Commons License

In his fifth and sixth years at Aligarh, my father worked on his master’s degree. After that, you could do research, but it took years to get a doctorate. My dad wanted a doctorate.

Sometime near the end of his sixth year, he was offered a scholarship to study at Forman Christian College in Lahore. But he had a problem.

You see my father had applied to be a tutor to the Agha Khan’s grandchildren in Switzerland. Sir Sultan Mohammed Shah, Agha Khan III had been chancellor of the university, and evidently an Aligarh student was going to be chosen as teacher to his grandchildren.

My dad’s problem stemmed from the fact that the chairman of the Physics Department, a certain Dr. Gill, was also involved in choosing the tutor from the list of applicants. And Gill knew about the Forman scholarship offer. So not only were his prospects as a tutor bleak, but his future as a physics student was also evidently at risk.

Gill must have been upset, because he demanded that my father provide a guarantee that he could and that he would pay back two to three months of his Aligarh scholarship.

As we sat in his living room, my father explained his quandry.

“My father was dead,” he said, “and my mother didn’t have the money to pay.”

All he could do was give his word, but that wasn’t enough for Gill. My father’s friends didn’t think this was right. They told him to talk to his professors and to talk to the dean.

“The dean listened to my story,” my dad said.

Evidently the dean spoke with others at the university and concluded that the right thing to do was to release my father and let him go to Forman, because it was clear that Dr. Gill’s anger at my father was going to be a problem.

So in the end he left Aligarh Muslim University. He left India and went to Forman Christian College in Pakistan.

As for his application to teach the Agha Khan’s grandchildren, that was out of the question.

“If things had been different,” my father said, “the current Agha Khan would have been my student.”

Update: The opening sentence above suggests that my father didn’t finish his Master’s degree at Aligarh. That’s not the case. During his fifth and sixth year, he worked on and was awarded his Master’s.

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