Sun, 28 Dec 2014, 10:35 AM (-06:00)
I had a dream that it was Alex’s wedding day.
I was putting on a red tux and was getting ready for the ceremony. I was to be one of two groomsmen wearing red tuxes; we were going to walk at the end of the procession. The other groomsmen would wear black, and they had already left. I was late.
This was my childhood home. I was in the garage putting on the tux. Then *flash* a moment later, I was across the street where the Molufs used to live, still trying unsuccessfully to tie that thin, thick tie.
My watch beeped. I looked down. The others were texting me. We have started, they said. I had missed the ceremony.
Dang, if that isn’t pure me. I’m supposed to be in Alex’s wedding… I’m getting ready to go… and I miss it.
Still, I kept trying to tie that infernal tie. And then one of the other groomsmen drove up. He was sweaty and was buttoning or unbuttoning his white shirt and tying or untying his black tie.
“Oh,” I said with a tentative sense of relief. “You’re getting ready for the ceremony?”
“No,” he said. He didn’t look up at me. “The ceremony is over. I’m getting ready for the second one.”
So at least there was that. There were to be two ceremonies, and it was possible that even though I’d missed the first I’d make the second.
Now Alex comes into the house. I try to think of something to say, but we’re both silent. He doesn’t even look at me.
…and then I wake up.
Sat, 27 Dec 2014, 09:42 PM (-06:00)
Monday morning. The office was empty and dark. Most everybody was gone for the holidays.
I walked into the conference room. Time for the end-of-sprint demo. Lou was there. Nobody else, although several dialed in on the phone as did the guys in Chennai.
Afterwards, I walked around the back of the room, over to where Lou had been running the meeting. And as I walked around the table, there on the windowsill to my left was something small, white and blue. A Staedtler eraser.
It was my Staedler eraser. The one I had misplaced the week before. The one I had searched for in vain. And in its absence, I was out of sorts. After all, what good is a 0.5mm Pentel pencil with 2B leads when you don’t have a Staedtler eraser to clean up stray marks, mistakes and miscalculations?
Now, holding it in my hand, I felt normal again.
Maybe Lou could share this moment, I thought. We’re roughly the same age. Maybe he would understand about paper and pencils and erasers and their connection to your brain thru fingers, wrist and arm. So I explained it to him. About my pencils. About my lost and found eraser. About my joy at the reunion.
But I was wrong. Lou looked up briefly but then returned to his laptop. It’s true that he and I are roughly the same age, but no, he did not understand.
… and so I thought I would share with you.
Mon, 22 Dec 2014, 07:16 PM (-06:00)
Lend me your ears, and I’ll sing you a tune.
RIP Joe Cocker.
Sun, 21 Dec 2014, 05:06 PM (-06:00)
I’d do it again in a minute.
Sun, 30 Nov 2014, 05:10 PM (-06:00)
It was a beautiful day.
Although the wind was windy, the sun was warm, and the sky was blue. In the afternoon, the leaves of the Monterey Oak glowed in the slanting rays of the lowering sun.
An amateur brush such as this can’t hope to render the tree as it stands outside the window. But than it can paint out the street and the garbage cans along the curb. And it can paint a two-fer … um … of sorts.
I am thankful this weekend for the fair and industrious Trudy. And for my mother who travelled great distances to visit. And I am thankful for a son who is … well … somewhere not sure where, but who did visit for a few hours on Thanksgiving Day. (I envy his ability to stay incommunicado for such long periods of time, I really do. … No, what am I saying … I don’t.) And I am thankful for my father far to the north who undoubtedly has the same complaints about his son as I do about mine.
Ok, and so that’s karma. No sooner do I write that whine and the prodigal son calls. “Are you up for a visit?” he asks in a chipper voice. So he’s on the way. And I am so busted, because now it’s only my father who has grounds for whining.
Sat, 22 Nov 2014, 12:55 PM (-06:00)
Because methinks one can never have too many leafez.
(Your mileage may vary.)
